i decided to write this post because i logged in to wordpress (after a pretty very long break) and noticed that there is still a steady stream of hits for this blog. which surprised me. maybe they searched for porn blogs and were deeply disappointed–or better yet, maybe got just a sliver of light. anyway, i guess what i need to communicate is, expect long breaks between posts. why? because i’m a lousy blogger. and, i don’t want to just post for posting’s sake.
i also write this post to encourage you and let you know that this blog did not come to a halt because the shinyness of the wagon wore off and i jumped out. not to say that i’m perfect–far from it, actually. but i still have hope (and now evidence) that significant, lasting healing can replace a porn addiction. i don’t know how god will use this blog, but i hope i am participating in his kingdom through it. i would like more people to comment, but what blogger doesn’t? maybe i should just write a post on obama–or maybe atheism. j/k freestyle and chill.
a final note about tv. roll eyes. big sighs. here he goes again. we got rid of our tv about 6 months ago–not because we’re super holy, but because we didn’t want to move that behemoth, old school, nuclear reactor picture-box to our new house. didn’t really have a good place for it and decided that we’d get a new fancy flat-panel when we finish the basement. well, i can’t tell you how much of a difference it’s made for me. m and i still watch our favorite shows online and s watches her videos on the computer. but i don’t sit down and give myself over to it’s programming. now that i think about it programming is an ironic and not-so-subtle term for what’s on. i know, i sound like a huge prude, and i don’t think a little skin on an advertisement here and there will ruin you. it’s the constant flow of images, desires of others and false promises of fulfillment. “The happiness of most people we know is not ruined by great catastrophes or fatal errors, but by the repetition of slowly destructive little things”—Dimnet. i thought i would miss it more than i do. although i have two little ones that keep me pretty busy–and lots of hobbies. i’ll stop short of telling you what to do. i can only speak to what it’s done for me.
opening the door--just a little? 
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I really like that quote
glad you’re back. i’m a lucky girl.
I want to hear more from you. You don’t have to post every week or even every two weeks, but at least once a month. And yes, it markedly increases your hit count to post on McCain, then on Obama, then on atheism, and before that on CoExist (with a logo). I now have a whole host of people from all over the world and from many different faiths that I am in coversation with. It has been good for me and I hope for them too.
I appreciate what you say about TV. For some reason, it doesn’t have that kind of power over me to just sit there and mindlessly watch what’s there. I have a couple of shows that I like and watch purposely, but I really dislike just watching whatever is there. I definitely watch sports the most and don’t even like watching sports that I didn’t intend to watch. It is different for everybody I think. I am glad that you are finding healing. Thanks for being courageous enough to share.
Oh yeah. Let’s get in the pool sometime.
don’t forget your floaties, you guys.
Heath and I have noticed that I am more obsessive and uncomfortable about my appearance the more we watch TV – even online shows with no commericals. All the women are impossibly beautiful and skinny! Okay, maybe a few people are naturally like that, like your wife for instance :-), but the shows make it seem like everyone is or can be like that. Still, watching tv shows or movies is our main form of entertainment that we can enjoy together after the kids are in bed, so we continue for now. We do netflix or DVR most of our shows, though.
interesting point, jenny. i’ve realized recently that our media-driven culture feeds us so many lies about fulfillment. really, when you step back and think about it, fulfillment of the audience is the last thing the media industry wants. the advertisements tell us we’ll be happy if we acquire x; the dramas offer hope of meaning and contentment in unrealistic relationships; the comedies allow us to escape for a bit. All the while, social “norms” are thrust upon us, most of the time without us even aware of it.
but, i think once we come to recognize what’s going on we become a little more free to enjoy the entertainment it can offer. i could go on, but it would be more rambling. good point, though.